The Beginning

Well I started online dating because being a single parent, holding down a Full Time job, Working Out, Housework, Playing with the girls, and yada, yada, yada.... I had NO OTHER CHOICE!!
To tell you the truth I really hate it. I didn't want to do it. But I am my ONLY BULLY! Nobody can make me do anything that I dont want to. Not even my mom! She will back me up on this one.
First experience that I had with the "On Line" thing was by pure accident.
I have a Facebook like everyone and their dog! Im not Joking! I have seen this.
I ran into an old lil flame I had as a middle school ugly girl.
This guy had not changed a bit when it came to my admiration.
Well.... okay he was like the EXACT fantasy Bad Boy with a good heart fantasy I had invented in my mind.
He was 6' tall, 210lbs of pure Ranger (ARMY) Soldier, Green Eyes, I can go on and on and on...
I am 5'2". Slim Petite Golden Tan, HUGE Brown Eyes, Jet Black Long Hair.
Needless to say... we were each others fantasy. Well.... now after 10yrs.
I think to be honest I was the one who searched for him.
I just always remembered him as my secret crush. Nobody, not even my best friend knew about this.
So I sent him a friend request and within a few days he added me.  We will call him Jayden.
Jayden was kind enough to write me a message.
He just said hi and that he remembered who I was and I quote "WOW!! I cant believe how much you have changed! You look GREAT!"
I was both excited and traumatized. I wasnt the best looking girl growing up. And he agreed.
I had my location set to Los Angeles, CA to throw some haters off.
So of course he asked about that. He asked if I was married because he did notice that I had 2 beautiful girls but no sign of a husband.
eeek! What did that mean? Was he interested in me? or Was he just being nosy?
Either way this FINE ASS SOLDIER (oh btw... anyone that knows me KNOWS who I admire ARMY Soldiers and Marines) was talking to me AND the fact that he was my Platonic Crush growing up and that didnt hurt at all!
I responded as maturely as possible even deep down I was that 12yr girl with buckteeth, skinny, limby and Bug Eyed Screaming like a Justin Beiber Fan.
" Oh! Hey there! It has been a long time. No I dont live in L.A. I switched the location to throw my ex off in finding my FB. So I am a single mom. And yuup I live in Logan now."
Anyway convo was just vanilla back and forth until...... I posted a picture of me sitting on the hood of my Dodge Charger 24" Chrome Wheels. I was sporting a tiny little flirty summer dress with baby doll white platform shoes.
The next morning when I checked my FB. He had sent me a message. I got excited as usual but I was unprepared for the inner bad boy this gentleman had locked up.
He wrote: "DAMN!!!! Mamacita! I saw this photo and it took my breath away... I hope I dont offend you by what Im about to tell you.. but you know what I thought? I would LOOOOVE to wrap those legs around my neck! SHIT! I know you probably are going to think Im a creep but you cant be posting photos like that for me to have access to. Im a Soldier fighting a war and you are my ideal fantasy all the way home."
I dropped my mouth wide open and read it over and over and over again I dont know how many times. I kept smiling and laughing and smiling and laughing.
My co-workers thought that I was crazy. I hadnt smiled in yrs.
So thats how my first online dating story began.
As time went on and on we sent each other pictures. I kept it clean because I am FULLY aware of what can happen.
But I did send him pics in my underwear. I was in LOVE ok!
Well we talked for about 5mo and he was due to take a  week leave in January. He couldnt tell me exactly when but he did trust me with telling me it was any day. Nobody knew! Not even his mother.
Well when he got to Utah I left him alone because I understood that his family came first.
I said I UNDERSTOOD! It was hard. I wanted to be in his arms and do the things we told each other we would do.
But I survived. And so on Saturday a week had passed so I updated my status that I was hitting the city!
He now lived in SLC so I knew he was going to jump at the opportunity.
He did! He sent me a message and said to meet him at a Hiphop Club.
I got there and time went by and by and a few hours into it I gave up. I had been stood up.
I was so sad and angry and by now DRUNK as a mofo!
I got there with my friend and her man. He took a guy with us. I was NOT there with him.
But.... when your drunk, heartbroken, embarrassed, this guy didnt look so bad.
So I did what I would NEVER phantom doing! I got mad and started dancing with this guy.
At one point this girl came to get us and informed us that out friends had been kicked out.
So here I am holding this guys hand for support! Im trashed I cant walk let alone talk or see.
As we head towards the door this huge guy stands right in my way.
I look up and I try to focus my eyes on him because hes not moving. He is starring me down and he asks "Are you okay?" I look at him.... and Im wondering WTF? Just get out of my way.
He then repeats himself and he says "Jandy! Are you okay?"
W.....T....F!!! I focus and its Jayden!!!
Here I am holding this guys hand and he now starts telling Jayden to mind his own buisness...... to be continues